The First Guy I Fell For

Remember the days of dating? Don't you miss them? Not me! I'm very happy with my boyfriend of three years. But let me tell you about the person I fell for before Jose. This thing, or whatever you'd like to call it, lasted/went on for a month. We met on a dating site back in October 2012 and then Hurricane Sandy hit and we lost contact for a bit. Then we started talking again in November and I became his girlfriend for like two days. We never met in person. We only chatted online; never skyped, never called or texted, never went on an actual date, and I never felt like his girlfriend. He was a pervert actually. He told me some personal sexual stuff and ALWAYS wanted nude photos of me; he would ask everyday. I of course have more dignity than that and said no over and over. He even talk about marriage with me before I was his girlfriend for 2 days; putting my name with his last name. Thinking about that now, that is really creepy.

So, one day in mid November (on one of those two days I was his girlfriend), I just had enough, and messaged him saying this wasn't going to work. I wrote a really good long message. Yes, I cried after that, but that's because I never thought I'd meet someone like Jose. This guy gave me attention, which I never had from a guy. I have low self esteem and confidence as it is and when a guy, even someone perverted, gives you attention, you soak it up and then when it's gone, it hurts. So, yea, I cried for one day but I got over it quickly and started talking to more guys. He called me twice after that and I never picked up. I didn't want anything to do with him and be bothered with him or that drama. Luckily, he never stalked me or became that obsessed with me and I never see him when I go through his area in the summer (the beach is nearby).

At the time I thought he was great and when I was talking to him, I fell for him; I was head over heels. What the heck was I thinking?! Plus, in hindsight, he was ugly. I mean, you weren't going to find him on any male model calendar or anything (ok, I'm bias). But, I wanted to give him a chance. If you don't give someone a chance, you might miss out on something.

A few weeks later, I met the love of my life, Jose (online too). We made it official on January 1, 2013. We argue, have our challenges, our ups and downs, but that's normal and we work through it. The most important thing is that we love each other, we're able to overcome things, and we have many laughs and a lot of fun together. He's my best friend and I never though I'd feel comfortable with a guy. There was an instant connection, I felt instantly comfortable with him from the beginning, and there was (and still is) great chemistry.

xoxo,
Courtney